4 posts tagged “friends”

私の方法（ほうほう）watashi no houhou (my manner; my way; my means; my technique)

My last week's experiences were a godsend. I started working and my first few days were incredible. I think, I found a very suitable office and having a job as a web designer again. I was very surprised that they think I am really good with what I do and that is designing  websites. I was really humbled that most of the people there knows me and have been following most of my works.

Last Friday, one of my officemate and a so-called friend who I met on the Internet around five years ago told me why shouldn't I work in Singapore or something. He believed that I am really good with what I do. Honestly speaking, I don't think I am that good. My self-esteem is too low. I know that I love creating websites and creating art but working outside the Philippines isn't what I have in mind.

It is kind of sad that most companies here in the Philippines doesn't give much appreciations to most designers and graphic artists alike. Most of them think that being a graphic artist is such an easy job. Making websites isn't all fun and games. Also in creating paintings, one place their emotion in their work. Some people are business minded and I understand that. I guess, having the idea of staying and working here in the Philippines is such a small effort on being a Patriot.

I love my country, even if there are poverty; monkey business in politics; very unusual weather; alligators in the services;  those things also exist in other countries. Although, despite of them all, I love the people. I love my family, friends, my home and the food. I don't want to be far away from these, not even for a second.

I'd like to visit other countries but I can't imagine staying outside of the country for more than a month. I admire those who I met who are working in other countries for they are brave.

Last Sunday around one o'clock in the morning, I got the chance to talk to Chris and asked him if he's going to church. I then told him that I want to pay a visit and pray to God. It's been so long since I went to church whole heartedly.

We went to a church near our place (Sacred Heart) around six in the evening. The mass ended around seven so we had dinner at chowking. We talked about things that I don't know if it was ok for him to talk about it but he end up telling me anyway. It was about old relationships and things like that. I was just curious about it and didn't think of anything else. I just wanted to know how it ended.

After dinner, he wanted to drop me home quickly because he has something to do with his dad. I asked if it was ok to walk towards my place even if it's a bit too far. Along the way, all that's in my head was blank. All I could do is smile and cherishing that happy feeling.

Pangya

As I posted the same thing from my blogger. I'd like to thanks Gelo for the wonderful game. It's been a while since I had a talk with friends and I am glad that I had a talk with Gelo while playing pangya.

We talked about my relationship with Chris and funny how my last game turned out. I managed to get at least a -3 score from my usual +6 to +8. haha. I felt relaxed when Gelo asked me things about Chris while it was my turn to putt and almost every time I think about what to say while putting I end up getting a birdie. Should I put a meaning on that? Hahaha!

Gelo asked me something that I couldn't really give an exact answer. As the question goes, "Why? Why am I happy?"

I keep telling him things but he say that those aren't the right answer. I forgot to mention one thing because I was kinda weirded out that my game was getting better. I forgot to say, "I'm happy because I love him."

Is that the right answer? =(^_^)=

I always try to be positive but lately, I just couldn't get myself to hold my head up high. The one thing that I used to do and always like doing, making other people laugh. When I see or at least know they are having fun, I'd feel happy myself; pleased to see they are laughing.

"Between an overload of information" - problem within the family; within the office; within friends; even within the volunteer work that I've been doing for more than a year now.

"Striving for a pure dedication in life" - I think each and everyone of us tries to find a real meaning. Yesterday, I tried to be funny with some of my friends over YM. As I try to tap my old habit of being witty and used Gelo's come back on my semi-serious question: "Is pride a sin?"

One example:
Me: I have a question: pride is a sin, right?
Friend: it depends... but yes.
Me: So here's a thought: I am my father's pride. So, am I my father's sin?
*there were many answers from different people who I said the same thought. And everyone of them had a really serious answer except for Kenneth.*
Me: So those people with Kia Pride, are they sinners?
*one just typed in '...'; some laughed and some said to me 'are you crazy?' I tell you it's fun to have this kind of conversation just to break loose.*

We all laughed and I said "Good morning" right after. It was a good feeling and at that time I tried my best to do my work even if I'm already stressed out and then later on, Chris (my boyfriend) talked to me over YM. It was a wonderful interruption and I felt abit relaxed. Then, I said this is going to be a good day.

A few minutes later, my officemate that it's time for the department's appraisal. That moment, everyone got so riled up. I thought I should already send my resume out to my cousin while I still can. When it's my turn, my boss and I talked about things and she did try to understand what I am trying to explain. I mean... I may be a senior artist but I'm only one person catering all projects coming from four people. And the tasks aren't just simple layouts but animations and a whole lot of other packages. Not to mention that I have a monthly thing to update on TV.

All went well and we tried to adjust. She also asked us to have dinner with her as a threat.