Happy Life

Out of usual boredom before going to sleep. I decided to check my friendster account. Friendster is something like myspace. Only that myspace is more popular to Americans than of to Filipinos and vice versa.

I was never really active in friendster or in myspace. Maybe, I just don't want to update every "blog" with the same stuff over and over. One reason why I have a friendster account was of my friends back in high school or even kinder.

I surf a little over at friendster.com (more than I should) and just clicked through one of my friends and saw this image (see image on the right) as the avatar/icon of a friend of his. And the nickname he chose is "happy life".

I checked out his images and it made me want to check out his profile. And read his shout:

"Putang inang mga blogs nyo, mamatay na kayo puro kayo reklamo sa buhay!!! walang gustong bumasa nyan!!! mga bakla!!!"

From the shout, it made me want to post something here. About what he said, as I would roughly translate it: "your blogs are m*** f**kers, you all should die, all your posts are filled with whining!!! no body wants to read them!!! you all are gays!!!"

This reminds me of who I was a few years back. I had an old blog which was filled with angst and pangs. In some turn of events, I realized that I shouldn't be like this. Nurturing hate doesn't solve anything, it doesn't do anything except keep your life miserable as it is. Some people would use blogs as a source of outlet, yes. I understand that and from what "happy life" shouted, I understand him as well. Maybe, in someway I am like him but in a more constructive and collective way of thinking. Think more on the positive outlet. Although, I cannot totally sway away from my own feelings with such cliché saying, "I am only human."

I actually forgot how things changed in my life... maybe it's because I am getting old. Maybe its playing ragnarok and meeting different kinds of people that made me reflect on my own life. Seeing and knowing their life made me think that my life isn't so bad after all. Later on, I decided to post things that would help me reflect and share those thoughts to others.

The words "happy life" also made me remember of what I told myself long before. In order to have a life, you have to make your own. No one else can do that for you. -hmm- Now, I remember how I got this attitude. It was from my ex-boyfriend, Lyndon, he was supportive until it lasted. Within those times that I spent with him, I slowly grew up. Just like one of my friends would say, "it's hard to wake up someone when that person doesn't want to wake up."

This is what I wish for those people who still linger in too many angst in their life but I am not the one who will and can change their views in life. It is up to them but I know, I can share my thoughts - through my blog. Funny, I remember one of my officemates' comment about me. She was expressing her feelings one afternoon, how she doesn't like her job and other things while I tried to be supportive and told her my own point of view when she cut me off saying, "You're always thinking of the bright side, aren't you? You always try to think positive."

As much I would like to say yes, I am not that much of a positive thinker. All I just do is take one step at a time. Live for the day, hope for tomorrow and the past is history. This is how I try to have a happy life. Enjoy the little things, friends, family, love ones and all those things that you enjoy doing.

So, here's to a "happy life."